God’s Testimony Over Me
I sat in church listening to pastor Joel asking us to be still and hear how the Lord was speaking to us individually. The teaching had been all about encountering the Lord. The first thing that came to my heart was “walk boldly, be bold” with the understanding He was meaning that He had made me to be bold for Him, He wants to use the way He made me for His glory, and He will be walking with me every step of the way!! YAY! Then I felt that there was something else He wanted me to hear so I asked Him to tell me more. Suddenly I heard in my heart, “I want you to write your testimony.” I felt discouraged because I could not see what good could come of writing all of that garbage again, so I said,
“I have already done that.”
Then I heard, “I want you to write the testimony I will give you, the one that glorifies my name.” I cannot fully describe the feeling that washed over me as I comprehended the depths of what He was telling me – fullness of joy, strength, peace, newness, suddenly comprehending the depth of His love, washed, clean, unchained!! These are so inadequate! My Father, my Lord and Savior, wants to speak truth over me with the testimony He wants me to write!! Wow! In fact, He wants to write it!! All of the lies must die, and when the Devil or others try to speak their lies over me I will look at this testimony of truth God has spoken over me!
Dearest Jeanne,
I created you to be exactly who you are. I created you with your personality, your strengths and your weaknesses, your spiritual gifts, and the practical ones too, a truth teller, vibrant, animated, full of gusto and not afraid to be bold when I need you to be, full of unconditional love and compassion, merciful but firm, not willing to compromise, forgiving, humbled, fearing me but full of the knowledge of how much I love you!!
Remember the mirror. The mirror of truth where I had you look to see what I see. You saw a woman that I love so much and that I have made to be beautiful from the inside out. I had you look in that mirror until you could see for yourself what I see. At first you could not really look but only quietly speak the words I wanted to speak over you, not really believing them, but I wouldn’t let that slide and made you keep repeating those words, “I am beautiful” until you could say them with conviction, fully looking yourself in the face.
Later, with a friend’s challenge I asked you to look in the mirror again. I wanted you to see what I see, a beautiful servant ready to live for my glory, not ashamed to care for herself and make herself beautiful on the outside too! The outward beauty that is a picture of what I have done on the inside, like the bride of Christ you are. Then once more I had you look in the mirror and I wanted you to stand, facing your Lord and Savior, your King and Redeemer, Jesus. With His hands on your shoulders looking deep into your eyes He said, “I love you so much, I love you so, so much!!
Too many times you have let others and the Devil speak lies to you, too many times my truth has been drowned out, but no more!!! I have freed you from every chain that has ever bound you! You see yourself the way I see you, a new creature with no sin, no past mistakes. I only see the precious one I love! I have firmly placed your feet on the Rock, you have confidence because I am walking with you, I will work through you, I will lead you and tell you when to speak and who to minister to. Follow me, forget the things that are past, look only to where I lead you. Rest in me, trust me and I will call you good and faithful servant!
Most of all, when the lies come, I want you to remember the things I have told you. I want you to remember the mirror, and the truth of who I AM and that I never change!! I AM - full of mercy, abundant in grace and forgiveness, not willing that any should perish, a strong tower, your Creator and Designer, I hear you when you call, I will never forsake you, I call you my own, I speak truth and I cannot lie, and most of all I love you so much!! I will give you your heart’s desire! This is what I speak over you, this is the testimony I have given you.
Loving you always, Abba Father
Galatians 1:11
For I neither received it of man, neither was I taught it, but by the revelation of Jesus Christ.
Philippians 3:13-14
Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
Isaiah 58:6-12
Is not this the fast that I have chosen? to loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and that ye break every yoke? Is it not to deal thy bread to the hungry, and that thou bring the poor that are cast out to thy house? when thou seest the naked, that thou cover him; and that thou hide not thyself from thine own flesh? Then shall thy light break forth as the morning, and thine health shall spring forth speedily: and thy righteousness shall go before thee; the glory of the LORD shall be thy rereward. Then shalt thou call, and the LORD shall answer; thou shalt cry, and he shall say, Here I am. If thou take away from the midst of thee the yoke, the putting forth of the finger, and speaking vanity; And if thou draw out thy soul to the hungry, and satisfy the afflicted soul; then shall thy light rise in obscurity, and thy darkness be as the noonday: And the LORD shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not. And they that shall be of thee shall build the old waste places: thou shalt raise up the foundations of many generations; and thou shalt be called, The repairer of the breach, The restorer of paths to dwell in.